Who I am as an actor now

 

Joining The course I'm in now has helped me so so much. It has allowed me to gain a lot more experience with acting, and has given me a good understanding of it (Especially since I had none before hand). This course has really helped me to gain confidence. I used to have really bad anxiety, and of course I still do, it's just not as bad anymore. My anxiety stopped me from doing any sort of acting for years, until I had enough and came to Stockton Riverside college to pursue acting. I was super scared at the beginning especially since a few people have already done some acting before. My anxiety started to get better due to how well my teachers taught me and how much they believed in us. The first show I have ever done was The witches. I was still super nervous so I went for a small role as the Grand high witches ‘servant’. I did the audition and it had gone alright and at the end of it I was just relieved that I was actually able to do it! I was then given the role of the tree house witch and the second chef. I was beyond happy with the fact that I was given two roles. During the process I learnt to love the tree house witch as I didn't find it too hard as my first role, but then I absolutely hated the second chef. I had to scream and shout like someone who had a mouse in their pants, because they did. It was so hard for me to get the courage to do it in front of everyone, but I wanted to prove myself, and show that I can do it, and so I did and I did it in front of an audience. This gave me a massive confidence boost, which allowed me to branch out for harder and more challenging roles. It was then Charlie and the chocolate factory. I wanted to go for Verruca as she was in fact out of my comfort zone but also I knew that she didn't have too many lines. I was still scared of learning too many lines and not being able to remember them at this point. My teachers really wanted me to audition for Charlie Bucket but I was really reluctant to do it, and I ended up deciding to audition for him the day before. I ended up getting the role, which was the best thing that has happened to me on the course. I went from being in a few scenes to being from scenes 1 to the very end. This allowed me to feel proud of myself, and made me want to audition for any role that is different for me. Charlie taught me that if you try your hardest and not care what anyone thinks, that you can do it! We then had a remote. I auditioned for a psychotic character which is very different to Charlie. I didn't end up getting it, but the fact that I tried it was super good. We are now doing Blood Brothers. I auditioned for Linda, as she would probably be the hardest character for me to play that has come up. She has a Scouse accent which I couldn't do at all at the time, she also grows up in the show, from being 7, 18 and to 25. This shows so much characterisation, and maturity, which can be super hard to portray. She also shows a lot of emotions such as happiness, flirtation to then depressed/ stressed. I went for Linda and I didn't end up getting her, but I know that I did well, and that throughout this year I have pushed myself well.